For the past couple of years I’ve struggled with what to do with this site. Do I keep it up, keep chugging away at it, keep using it as, what, my public journal? My Bible study? My witty yet insightful take on the world around me? I honestly don’t know. I never went into this with any kind of plan, and that “world around me”? Yeah, it’s changed a lot. I’m far more likely to spend my time on Twitter or Tumblr than I am here. “There” is easy. It’s instantaneous. “Here” is time-consuming and not always that fun. “There” is free. “Here” I’m paying ten bucks a month for a webhosting account for a product I’m not using. So what do I do?
I kill the blog.
That’s right, I nuke the whole thing. Close up shop. Turn the lights out, the party’s over. Break on through to the other side.
Or!
I move it. Back to wordpress.com and to a free account. Keep the content but remove the webhosting component. Once it’s free, I can do whatever I want to with it. If I ignore it, at least it’s not costing me anything. Problem solved. Easy as pie. Done and done. Except… well… there’s another option.
What if I actually use it? Post something. Like what? No idea. Let’s start with this post.
Now, I have no intentions of blogging every day or even every month. I’m not crazy. But what if there’s still value to this site? Still an opportunity to write here. As much or as little as I want. As freely as I want. Guys, this year’s been tough. Like real tough. I’ve lost both my parents in less than a year. I’m hurting, I’m not gonna lie. I don’t have all the answers and I don’t need to. This blog-thing may just me thinking out loud without any real goal or structure or spellchecking. I don’t know. I’ve given up trying to find a perfect solution to this thing.
So here’s what I’m proposing. I’m not starting over. That’s not what this is about. But take one step. Maybe another. And see what happens. No promises. No hard feelings.
I think I can live with that.